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First Impressions: Doctor Sleep by Stephen King

Doctor Sleep is the sequel to ‘The Shining’. King apparently had written this book in response to questions he’d been asked on book tours, “What happened to Dan?” Dan was the little boy who had an abusive father he loved and a gift called ‘The Shining’. The gift had, in some ways led to events that killed the dad in the Overlook hotel. In this sequel, Dan Torrance grows up to be plenty messed up. Thoughts and memories of the evil dead he’d seen in the Overlook crowd his mind. To kill them some more, he drinks a lot. The book in fact begins with him nursing a fat lip after a drunken brawl. An incident occurs where he really believes he has hit a new low. It’s time for Dan to quit drinking and change. So he packs his bags, gets on a bus and moves to a new town. There, with the gift he has, he works in a hospice helping people on the brink of death to sleep and cross over to the other side. They call him ‘Dr. Sleep’. While at the hospital, one night Dan sees a name scribbled in

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What I wrote to some people about reading Herman Hesse' Siddhartha: In one edition, Paulo Coelho has written the prologue of this book. He read this book when he was in an asylum, tackling his nervous disorder. When he finished, it was daybreak - literally and metaphorically. I read this book because a favourite boss recommended it. He said I'd 'get it'. What can I say? In my reading life, it's not my most impactful book (that’s Roots by Alex Haley),it's not the book my heart pulsates for(that’s Rushdie’s ‘Shame’),it doesn't leave me with the wild melancholy that doesn't leave (Bell Jar by Sylvia Plath). But Siddhartha...it broke my heart. In the way something simple like sunshine on dew will break your heart someday - with its true, delicate honesty. Did I 'get' Siddhartha? Not sure. But what happened was a strange, surreal kind of alchemy...the book read me. In an age of book proselytizing, I won’t go into a 'you gotta' read this

826 - The Twelve Steps of AA

As I drove to an early morning yoga class, I saw a thin sliver of moon in the sky - a shy, golden-white smile. My heart was clenched and I thought of a remark and very angrily - with a temper I thought I had tamed - I spat out 'coward'. And wished I had come face to face with that wimp to bash his or her face in. Not good.  Also, finished Dr. Sleep by Stephen King. Made me think of AA's 12 steps (it's a strong motif in the book.) Here it is. A reminder for when a shy, golden-white moon is in the sky and an old, rousing temper in the heart. We admitted we were powerless over alcohol - that our lives had become unmanageable. Came to believe that a Power greater than ourselves could restore us to sanity. Made a decision to turn our will and our lives over to the care of God as we understood Him. Made a searching and fearless moral inventory of ourselves. Admitted to God, to ourselves and to another human being the exact nature of our wrongs. Were entirely rea

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Went to Crossword last evening. There, I happened to read the introduction of a book called 'Bol Bam' by Scharada Dubey. It's a compilation of essays on various pilgrims and pilgrimmages associated with Lord Shiva. There seemed to be a few pictures and I dipped into some pages in the middle of the book. Seemed insipid to me. But I was very curious about the author's life after reading the Introduction. She had a quiet childhood, mingled with friends from other faiths, and was exposed to diverse ways of approaching religion through her parents' mindset. Her mother was fairly devout. Her father wasn't. Neither forced her to pray or follow any religious ceremonies. She picked up pieces of Hinduism as and when she could, mostly unknowingly. Then the scene in India changed - or actually, maybe it didn't change. It just got more vivid and there were the riots and the rise of Hindutva and the inexplicable shame of calling oneself a 'Hindu' - even though

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It was a good day yesterday. I think any day that begins with yoga or some form of exercise usually turns out to be good. There was a fair bit of work but the project turned out pretty well in the end. Most of us left office beaming. I came home and was suddenly in no mood for paratha. No mood to warm it up and have it with  palak daal and soya cutlets. So I made rice. I have a large plastic canister of rice. It is one of the most joy-creating items in my home. Fine, white grains feel smooth and sharp when held in the palm of the hand. I like how each grain - each one of them will swell in hot water and will fill me up with taste and well-being. I can see why rice is used as a symbol of abundance in rituals. Even with a fistful you get a sense of there is so much   of   so much .

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Yesterday was a bit of a downer. There's a bunch of us that meets periodically to discuss our writing - whatever we do of it - and throw around ideas. Although I really like the group, the last few weeks I was hoping for extensive feedback on my work. A critique. Something more than a nod or a 'Nice'. I suppose it is hard to give feedback to someone sitting directly opposite you...but we had met a few times and I thought we were in a place where we could comment on each other's work substantially - especially mine. What surprised me was a defensiveness or an unwillingness from the group when I asked for it. It annoyed me. Until I figured out that no feedback is a kind of feedback itself. My material didn't connect. And that somehow seemed worse. There was someone in the group who thought that I was basically looking for people to say they liked my work. That I found a little irksome. I have been writing for a really long time. I do it for a living. I get feedb

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An awesome lunch was had at Curry Leaves. If you find yourself in the vicinity of the Baner-Pashan Link Road, definitely try out the Kerala spread at Curry Leaves . Flaky, soft parotta and a later of spicy roasted mushrooms that came dusted with cumin powder and garnished with crisp, fried curry leaves. A bowl of payasam one slurped hastily enough and a tall, cool glass of spicy lassi . That was what I had. Friends had a chicken thali that came with three pieces of fried chicken, avail, Kerala rice, sme stew, payasam and some bowl of veggies. Fish thali had all of the vegetarian things and also Surmai. The best part that the place is very reasonably priced. The best part was that we walked along the curve of the road in the afternoon. It was hot but there was a really sweet soporific calmness. Day has ended. I walked a little bit around Aundh too. Visited Crosswod and made mental notes to buy Pyaasa. Day has ended and am really looking forward to gorgeous sleep.  

Green Giant by Jack Prelutsky (I find this very cheery)

There lived a green great giant whose name was Sam His hair was the color of strawberry jam He had one brown and one blue eye And a beard the color of pumpkin pie. His coat and pants were oh so bright Like a peppermint stick all red and white His socks were as brown as a chocolate drop His head was the color of gingerbread With a tall, tall feather of raspberry red.

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What can I say about today? Went for yoga this morning. Trying out a new class and loved the suryanamaskars I did there. I felt so open and fresh. I should really do that every single day - at least a few rounds. I have a very good feeling about today. I think we are blessed.

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Met some new people yesterday evening. It always surprises me how this happens. How people meet, smile and say hello. When you stay by yourself as much as I do or hangout with maybe just one or two people at a time, I really wonder at the miracle of these set-ups when so many people 'mingle', you know? Smile and shake hands and exchange numbers or email addresses or just suddenly, tell you about a bit about their childhood or their place of birth or a pond in their college...and I feel so overwhelmed. In a slightly good but unnerving way. I think all that enthusiasm just got to my stomach and it started getting knotted up and churning badly. Despite being one, I am fairly certain that human beings over the age of three make me nervous - especially if there is conversation involved.

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A quiet day. Woke up late because I had a few bad dreams last night. It must be the effect of reading Stephen King's 'Dr. Sleep'. My neighbour mentioned that I've lost weight and asked me what I'm doing. I joked and mentioned that I am eating the food that I cook. I thought that was that but then later in the day, she asked me if I could make a little extra for her. Made me feel a little sad yet thoughts of a potential business opportunity bubbled. Went to Bounty's at Kalyani Nagar with a friend. He wanted to try sizzlers and that was where I'd had the tastiest sizzlers in Pune. Personally, I preferred it to 'The Place' on MG Road or E-Street. I just had an onion and cream soup that was nice. You could really get the taste of onions. I thought maybe they could add some more salt in there. My friend had a nice big chicken shashlik . The weather in Pune is rainy, cold, dreamy, and has you reaching out for a warm cup of coffee ever so often. We dro

First Impressions – Myth = Mithya by Devdutt Pattnaik

This book is one tasty meal. It begins with exploring what myth is, what purpose it serves and who needs it. According to Western philosophy, myth is understood to be ‘falsehood’. In Hindu philosophy, it is not so much a falsehood as one superficial layer that must be peeled back and transcended to really understand the ‘Truth’ – that is, what we, the worlds, and all of this dance of time and space stands for. The blurb succinctly outlines the main message of the Hindu mythology. Hindus have one God. They also have over three million gods. (By, the way, note the difference in capitalization.) They have gods and goddesses with their unique specialization very. They also have various kinds of demons and ogres. But Hindus have no ‘Devil’. In a nutshell, the equation between the gods or devas who reside in the heavens and the demons or asuras who reside below the ground is really a tussle between disciplined, cultured ways of living or wanton, hedonistic lives in the natural world. T

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Today, I pressure-cooked vermicelli with some peas and corn, added a little oil, meat masala powder, salt, a pinch of turmeric and red chilli powder. It has a greul-type consistency because I cooked everything together. To keep the vermicelli strands separate, they need to be boiled in another vessel- not in the same one where the veggies or meat is being cooked. Then they need to be removed from fire and washed in cold water.  Anyway, I made a bit of it and saved it for dinner.  It feels endless - this cooking, washing, chopping after every meal.  Anyway, I have a long day at work now. Will finish and then go home. I was planning to wash clothes tonight but maybe just the dishes. 

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On unexpected days when there is a lot to finish, it helps to come home, brew some tea and get on to Facebook. I like Facebook. I like a space where the most intuitive thing to do is to like and to share.

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Quickly then. Got back to Pune. Felt strange at first but after making the first cup of coffee at midnight, felt at home. Things with maids was still tense so today, I let go of both of them. This anxious wait in the morning for when they will turn up just was getting to me. For a bit, they looked surprised and then, they looked relieved. I felt bad. No-one should have to do the job they don't feel like doing. That I let them go on the same day that I was joining back work after a longish leave is maybe an irony or metaphor or some other appropriate part of speech. Anyway, now until I find someone else, all of the housework is left to me. Housework and cooking. Last night, I'd made daal and it was appreciated by a friend. Said friend was also very hungry but I think the food part I can manage. It's the washing dishes and washing clothes that will be tough. But never mind. Something will work out. The first step is to stop putting up with things that don't work. 

840 - A wish,a purpose, and time to make plans

I think I would like a gap year. One year where I have to do nothing more than go through 24 hours in some broad strokes that I feel will make me happy and feel fulfilled. These are - do yoga for nearly an hour, climb up a hill or go for a walk for an hour or so, eat very simple meals - hopefully just rice, daal and maybe palak or methi , read some, maybe meditate for forty minutes or so, and most importantly write. Write for 10 to 15 hours. Write that much every single day for 365 days. In this time, I don't want to worry about whether I am out of sugar or salt or cauliflower or the credit card bills are due or the rent cheque has to be paid off or things like that. I would like the people I love to be healthy, happy, and out of the way (it will help if my friends and family are enjoying themselves in the Alps or something and can't be bothered with updating me with whether the dhobi found the white pants that went missing the week earlier). Additionally, I would like a ye

First Impressions – The fault in our stars by John Green

It’s not the most original premise – two teenage cancer patients fall in love. Their love is doomed because they will suffer for a long time and long suffering is a ‘side-effect’ of dying. (This phrase ‘side-effect of dying' is often used by the central character.) These two teenagers have smart mouths and do their part in breaking through the myth of suffering cancer-patients who march their way to heaven through martyrdom. One of them dies – the one you don’t expect to (the boy). The other one copes. (The girl.) There’s also a writer of a book ‘The Imperial Affliction’ who plays a part in the way any writer plays a part in our lives when he has written a story that resonates with us.  Overall, the book is good. I found a few portions a little forced and stilted but there are also passages that are beautifully written. Especially when the two lovers quote poetry or share stories with each other. This book was gifted and recommended by Ma, so it will always be special. Bu

841 - the day I ate overpriced cheese chilli toast at Leopold

Woke up late with a strange feeling in my stomach. There was some thinking and sorting out to be done but since I am not in Pune but in the loving and abundant environment of Mummy and Papa's home in Bombay, I decided to be irresponsible. So I dawdled over coffee, ate a big lunch and yet again, planned an evening out in town. So, we cabbed it through the Worli Sea Link which is quite a treasure because of the mnty blue sea that lines the drive. We walked through Colaba causeway. I got a short khadi top and a longer, loose shirt for Mom. We also went to a tiny bookstore in Colaba Causeway and then had some potato wedges, chilli cheese toasts, cokes and a juice at Leopold. The bill ran up to 1500 bucks which was w-a-a-a-y more than what we'd expected. There was a stop at Good Earth. It has some gorgeous stuff but really expensive. I really liked a simple, white cotton sleeveless dress with a cowl neck. There was a flame-orange sharaara that was very pretty too. What also caugh

843, 842 - First Impressions: Gone Girl, Interstellar

Two good days. Two very good days. There were two rather nice movies - Interstellar and Gone Girl. Interstellar really had me towards the end when the full import of what was being conveyed hit me. Somewhere we look to Science for the same things that we look to God for - a sense of feeling small before something great which is different from daily life. In daily life, one generally feels insignificant before something big - and that is not the same thing at all. If this doesn't make sense, then watch the movie - especially the scenes of dust storms in the beginning, the first sighting of the worm hole, the colossal wave that threatens to knock the spaceship, and the final knock behind the shelves that sorts everything out. It is spine-tingly towards the end. Michael Caine and Anne Hathway grated on my nerves for a little bit but Mathew and Matt Damon are very good. Damon has a really short role but comes with a very important message - nature can be a bit ugly - especially the

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Did I mention that I ate chhurros last night? Warm, crisp, freshly baked, lightly dusted with cinnamon and sugar with a small pot of molten chocolate to dip into. I had first had chhurros (a Spanish dessert/ snack) in Los Angeles - Disney Land. I remember it being really hot and I was wearing a thin, pink printed tee and wanted something sweet and crispy. The version I'd had there, if I remember correctly, was alittle softer, more chewy, and came with a lot more cinnamon. Instead of chocolate, though, it was a honey-apple relish. Totally yummy. Any chocolate alternative is. I don't like chocolate. Maybe white chocolate. Long time ago, Barista used to make a tasty white hot chocolate which was so good! Then they stopped.

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Today I went to town for dinner. Roamed around by myself until I lost my way. Was shepherded to the right spot by a stranger who gt me to right place and went on his way. Then met a pal, ate, drank, shopped on the street, had a dessert and came back. Didn't need to have a car. Didn't need to book a cab. Didn't need to call up anyone for a back-up plan or a last minute pick up. Just sat back in the taxi, watched the city-lights shimmer like ice-cubes, see an unreal world reflected in the sea, and came back home. A last minute plan with a friend should be that easy - no matter who you are, no matter where you are. When a city affords you that, it's a big city. I know Mumbai is a really costly city...but man, has it made me feel rich!

848, 847, 846, 845 - a wedding, some friends, low energy and a trip to Nariman Point

I attended a close friend's wedding this Monday. Had travelled to Bangalore for this. This friend, I'll call her L, because that's not her initials at all...anyway, L really has been one of the most affectionate people in my life. She has been tempestuous and fiery and in all manners irritatingly opinionated but...I don't know. I had been friends with her unguarded. I remember us watching crappy films at Cinemax or Gaiety Galaxy towards the end f the month - when I'd be rank broke. And she'd stuff money in my purse so that I could rick it back home instead of take a bus. It annoyed me of course that she would assume that I'd be short of cash...but later, when I started observing how antiseptic relationships can become, I realize what a big thing that was. I shared palak khichdi with her at the swankiest pubs in Juhu like it was the most normal thing in the world. We had ricked almost half-way across the city to have hazelnut cappuccino when it was the new

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Tough day. Today I plodded on with my work and despite a cringing resistance, put one word in front of the other and finished my assignment. Slowly towards the end I actually enjoyed a couple of paragraphs that I had written. Some dialogue for a scenario, a bit of visualization that at least shows some potential on paper. Came home to a nice meal of hot rice, yellow daal, and a great spicy, lemony salad. I love that combination. Anyway, a wedding beckons. So even though I feel depleted right about now, I am looking forward to being cocooned with some love.

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It's time to really get cracking and figure out where I'm headed. There is just too much fatigue and restlessness. Maybe this is something what I should think about and decide on first. Should I let go of the cook and the cleaning lady because they are not punctual and they have been absent for just so long without giving any intimation? It's a difficult choice to make for several reasons. One - I have never done it before. I don't like telling people to leave. In the past, usually the maids have left of their own accord whenever they have found jobs closer home or for better pay. I have been feeling too tired and unwell lately so it would be nice to just have them join back. But I get the feeling that at least one of them has started taking me for granted. Maybe she's the one I should let go of. Oh well. If I actually had the time, I would like to sleep on it.