Chiffonesque

I read this book on my birthday. This book is a collection of musings, reflections, and quotes by Cheryl Strayed. The book begins with a very endearing little treatise on the importance of quotations and how she held on to them through life. A pithy filament of wisdom nourishing her, keeping her strong, and in a strange way, even letting her be. There are certain pieces that I particularly liked - the way society absolves itself of taking on the responsibility of a sad person. We tell that person to 'get help', instead of softening our own gaze. There is another part she talks about how we ought to be a little kind - just a little bit if being a whole lot kind feels like having a toe-nail pulled out - if we are walking away from someone. You can make your decisions and stand by them, but you ought to be kind enough to still be a friend to the ones you leave. There is a humane touch to trite advice - you will go on the way you will go on. You will clutch at any little filam...

Yesterday was a rather nice day. (My nose is still twitching from the dust and chalk that one of the rooms is shrouded in - now that painting has begun.) Anyway, a late night call got canceled at work. My sister-in-law is helping me out by staying with me. So yesterday, she'd come out for a walk. We had a nice coffee at Starbucks. Then we ate out at Tareef in Aundh. I would strongly recommend the tandoori mushroom and the fish fry. Portions are really good. We walked back late at night, enjoying the warm, summer breeze and catching sleepy blossoms on tired trees. It was good.

Some good stuff that has happened so far: 1. I love and relish this article: http://firstround.com/review/the-remarkable-advantage-of-abundant-thinking/. Do read it to see how company culture can change by rounding off the edges in interactions, being more appreciative, and building a foundation on deep love instead of iron will. 2. My back-ache has reduced somewhat. 3. Landlord has finally started painting the house. Today's the first day. I'll be staying in the house as it is getting painted. So, looking forward to the experience. 4. Worked on a really nice project. 5. The peach-colored hibiscus blooms. 6. We've had a couple of gorgeous, cloudy days in Pune. All in all, good stuff.

I don't know why but I am feeling so lost now. Just so lost. Sometimes the people on LinkedIn are not very nice. I have a feeling that I need to complete a whole lot of past, used, decaying, stagnating projects that are blocking just so much of my energy and I don't know how to begin. I really need a break. I need to take 12 months off. Anyway, no point in whining or feeling overwhelmed about this. I think I should just make a list and very slowly, very patiently, take one item at a time and just see it through. See it through completely. Feeling really exhausted now.

Had heard this on Bandstand long ago - over ten years ago. Some guy was telling it to his girl who seemed to clutch some letter or something very hard; tears streamed down her face. They were both so, so young. That girl so broken. That boy so wise. Just like that I found that verse on the net: Takdeer ke khel se kabhi mayus nahi hote Zindagi mein ese kabhi bebas nahi hote Hathon ki lakiron par kabi yakin mat karna kyun ki takdeer unki bhi hoti hai jinke haath nahi hote (I feel all cities have their own special essence - something that comes derived from whatever it's main significant kernel is. Growing up in Bombay, in Bandra - it felt like a lot of Bombay's kernel was shaped by films. For so many reasons, such as this - I feel Bombay is a special city. Somehow I always got the feeling that destiny can just be dismantled and set up again and again and again. As long as the story continues. As long as it's not yet time to pack up.) ...

What was good about yesterday: 1. A warm, delicious spicy egg and chicken sausage yesterday at Moshe's. 2. A very nice walk home. The breeze was cool and sweet. There were plenty of stars on the road and just all-around gorgeous stuff. 3. A great chat with my mother. 4. A really nice bowl of masala rice for breakfast. 5. A glass of refreshing kokum drink (the one by Paperboat).

Stuff that made yesterday a nice day: 1. The rickshaw rides to and from Koregaon Park. On both counts, it was really easy to get auto-rickshaws and it felt so good to simply sit in, not drive, and look out at the world go by or stay stranded in traffic. 2. Bought three pairs of ear-rings from a street hawker on Kregaon Park. One is a kind-of-mother of pearl ear-rings (very fake of course since it was for fifty rupees only). Another one is a basic, simple hoops. The third one, that I like, is a totally out there pair of chrome-shiny owl. I love that! I tried it on at home and given my short hairstyle, etc., it looked really dramatic. But I want to wear it to work some day. So I'll probably have to hunt for some very plain, dark clothes so as not to given an impression to my office colleagues that I'm going to Broadway - to star  in a show! 3. Went to French Creperie again! I love that place. I love it! I had a warm tuna salad with some boiled eggs that was delicious! The ...

A fitful night A restless sun A waking of an uncertain land; I clawed to scrape the morning light Yet curled up when the light scraped too bright. A listless day A hopeless way A today boiled hard and jaded I wiped the ache  And sweated out blue And clipped the nails from where the light had faded. The night came as it always does Certain and silent and strong And despite the perpetuity it promises It still wouldn't last too long. When the moon is glum And the stars keep mum And I trace the destiny fissures on my hand I wonder if my promised paradise Is a simple rented home In a lost and uncertain land.

Some good things I came across today: 1. Saw a spray of beautiful white-almost bluish flowers by the roadside. It was a lovely shade and it so happened that, at work today, I came across a website that calls this shade 'Alice Blue'. (http://www.flatuicolorpicker.com/?utm_content=buffer442f1&utm_medium=social&utm_source=pinterest.com&utm_campaign=buffer) 2. I tried the Paneer Wrap from Mac Donald's. It was tasty and spicy. Loved the wrap itself, though. It was quite soft and not at all doughy. 3. The car has stalled since the last few days. So, I've been taking the auto since the last few days. The rickshaw stand at Balewadi Faata is working out pretty well! They go by meter. They, so far, have been polite. Yes, they will decline to give back change. But most will smile as they will tell you that it's okay to forego eight rupees. 4. Really funny episodes of Stephen Colbert's Late Night show. I enjoy those a lot. 5. My pretty black and white...

Things to be grateful for: 1. Had a lovely time at the play reading of Dicken's Christmas Carol. It was light and fun and it was really interesting to see people really get into the narration. 2. I went to Model Colony for the first time. Checked out Model Cafe there which was quite charming. 3. After the meetup, a couple of us tried out a new place called Tien. This is again in Model Colony. It's small, chic, with black decor and stuff. It's known for good and affordable sushi. They were out of sushi when we landed up there. I had an iced tea that had been freshly brewed and didn't come out of the box. I also had a red quince and mushroom dish that was tasty. 4. My car has stalled so I got a ride back home. On a bike. Which is always thrilling once I get past the initial fright of me falling down and having my head split open. 5. I wore my white smock dress with sailor striped. I hadn't been able to find it in my cupboards. But found it, wore it, enjoyed...