Day 16 of 108

 

The pictures don't look like much. But...it is testament to what can happen when you don't expect anything. I don't think I can ever not expect anything...no. That's not true. I intend to become the person who doesn't expect anything.

Anyway, here are all the things I am grateful for:

1. Papa is well. Spoke to him.

2. Got through a rough and tough meeting.

3. A friend had connected with me a few days earlier with a strange and magical request. It was so sudden and beautiful and bizarre that I allowed myself to think of something I had not thought about for a long time. Then we had talked. And then he disappeared. And today he appeared again. We went to August Cafe where I had cutlets and a Vietnamese coffee and he had a chicken and pesto wrap and orange juice. Then he wanted liquor so we stopped at this liquor store called Maison or something on SV Road. Gosh! It's grand! I got a Greygoose vodka and Sepoy tonic water. The rose and elderflower tonic water is just so pretty! I fixed him a drink and poured myself the tonic water in a goblet... that's as far as I will go with drinking. Then we talked...about childhood trips and all that. I don't know...I can see that some people genuinely do try to be good. They do try to make promises that they will keep. But I feel that I can innately know that that's not to be. It's an ageless part of me that seems to know it...the way the sky knows that a full moon's promise to remain whole will not last. It will wax and wane. And become full again. For what it's worth, we had a sharp, soft good time.

4. I had kept some money aside to buy myself this pair of Celine frames I had seen earlier. But I had to service my laptop and upgrade etc. It set me back a whole lot. So I can't get those glasses now. It's okay. I am grateful for that feeling. Of being okay with budgetary reallocation. 

5. I got Aflatoons today! Yummy! 

6. I am supremely grateful for one piece of clarity that I got today. I will not share it now. But will act on it from tomorrow. Yes. Clarity is a huge deal. Bigger than anything else.