Today was good. Some solid work happened and some progress was made. There's an early morning call tomorrow. So I will probably make myself a cool drink, surf a little, and go off to sleep.
Tried out a new cleaning lady today. Beyond useless. Anyway things are crazy and I really need to temper my expectations.
I think in future, people who are not deluded will win. Today someone called me because they needed inputs on writing their resume. They wanted me to rewrite a few sections so a specific skill was highlighted. First of all they did not have that skill at all. In fact what they wanted me to highlight turned out to be traits that inhabited that skill. Then they were oddly convinced that they were good at things. I would have rewritten their resume earlier according to what they wanted because I too would be blinded by their nonsense. Today I refused point-blank. Because through a lot of painful experiences at work and outside, I have seen trouble being caused by delusion.
Weather was good but there was a lot of work. Didn't work out today and ordered this excellent bambolinis from Cremure. Tried the blueberry one today. That was excellent.
It would have been nice to get some reading done today but unfortunately that didn't happen. Looks like July will be a hard and tough month. Like the rest of it. So need to try and stay easy through it all.
Over the weekend, in a conversation with a friend, the works of Jung had come up. Dhe mentioned the book Origins and history of Consciousness. It's an expensive book. I ordered it and it arrived today. Such a thick, dense textbook. I just flipped through it and wondered if I needed more concepts and labels in my psychological wardrobe to dress myself with. But it could be a tired mind talking. Once I organize my life a little bit, get a little sweeter about life and living, make a proper study timetable, and actually go through these piles of books, it will be good.
Rather I suppose it is good now. In the stillness of the night, the heat and humidity of the rain, a full library, and some overflowing wardrobes, life actually is good. I am strangely surprised even as I write that line- the sudden outreach of peace and calm that just enveloped me now.
That's the deal you see when the delusion lifts.
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