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 Have been working through the night. I think I...

Okay, stuff happened and I could not finish the post and then got busy two days in a row. But here I am. It is 4:08. I have finished working on some technical and scientific content and am okay with the output. Not over the moon but okay. Given the time and complexity, not a shoddy job. 

It has been a couple of days and I have been positively besotted with this IIT baba at the MahaKumbh. I will maybe write about him in detail later but I find him so innocent and lucid and in a strange embrace of pain. He believes that he is Kalki - the latest avatar of Vishnu and with a new Kalki temple being set to be constructed in Sanbhal, UP. This guy, Abhey Singh, who is now called 'IIT-baba' or 'Maharaj Kalki' studied in IIT Mumbai (did aeronautics engineering from there I believe) and then worked in Canada for a few years. He is 37 years old and seems to have had a troubled childhood. As a child, he had seen his father tie up and beat his mother. He was in a relationship at one point with a woman who had been sexually assaulted in her younger years. His fingers are beautiful. I think that's what struck me - his fingers are very elegant and delicate. He was born in Haryana and I don't know if his fingers or just the gentleness he has was why his father could not accept him.

I think whether he is God or not, I don't think I have been this attracted to someone. He is very young and with this kind of energy, he obviously is an attractive man. Yes, a lot of what he says may in modern times point to some kind of an unstable mind. He smokes up and I suppose drinks. But I still feel there is an innocence in him, if not omniscient power. Sometimes when he is giving talks on his own YouTube channel, he looks free, making diagrams of consciousness and explaining Advaita mathematically. He is a remarkably good teacher. (The IIT brain does shine through.) But then on TV channels, when he is giving interviews, he looks like a lost child - the way a child on stage looks out for his or her parents sitting in the audience. In his case, his issues with his family are one thing. But I wonder if that is why he truly believes that Mahadev (Shiva) talks and walks with him. Who is to say that that is less normal than me believing that Ma Kali takes care of me? I had a very loving childhood and I absolutely cherish both my parents - not just as parents but as exceptional human beings. But if I had seen the turmoil that he has seen, given that his IQ and EQ were so sharp and in a town like Jhajjar, maybe he did not get his kind of kindred spirit. Who or what is normal then? I mean, of course, if he indeed is an avatar of Kalki, that's another matter. He reminds me of the musical, "Jesus Christ Superstar". That musical explores the psychology of Jesus in the last 7 days. And in one paragraph, someone cracks a joke that if Jesus came back to the world in a million years, no one on Earth would believe him. (I don't remember exactly.) I last heard that he apparently said something about Ma Kali and then people want him banned and all. I don't know what he said. But knowing what I know about the media and the general sense of people's motives, one can safely say that they would have missed the core point.

Anyway, I like his talks on quantum physics and how he connects the dots to different things. He seems like a sweet child. I hope he gets what he wants.

Here are all the things I am grateful for:

1. Papa is well.

2. I am safe.

3. I finished one storyboard.

4. I had the most gorgeous croissant from Subko.

5. Posted something on LinkedIn. (I am glad I could think of a short thing to write for LinkedIn.)