Day 89 of 108

 

It was a sweet, tender day. I declined to meet someone. Did I feel good about it? Actually initially I didn't. I had not wanted to even respond to the message. But I really excavated my heart to locate some sense of forgiveness and I could not find it. But I did find the message that I would not like to meet this person ever again. But I have to work on my memory and forgiveness. I will begin with forgiving myself. It's okay. I have been through a lot and considering a bunch of sick things, I really feel I have done okay. 

And nowadays I feel that that is the resolve I must absolutely commit to everyday...I forgive myself for everything unequivocally. Enough of carrying around this burden of guilt and pain.

With that spirit, here are all the things I am grateful for:

1. Papa is well.

2. With my painful heel I walked to Mount Mary from Carter Road. I loved it. 

3. I tried to get some work done. 

4. Had good food. 

5. Have a home, water, and electricity. So so lucky.