Day 73 of 108

 I had a full day today, quite enjoyable. Still feeling a little deflated today because the auto guy who dropped me off made a fuss about getting the auto inside the gate. I got stern with him, and then he agreed, but...it did leave me feeling bad. Why am I always so brittle inside? No. I am not brittle. His job was to get in the gate and drop me at the location. I asked him to do his job. I paid him in full- as was my responsibility. Yep - on some days, this is as good as I can be. 

But I hope to be better and more resilient soon. 

Here are all the things I am grateful for:

1. I met Papa today. It was late. He had gone with his satsang people to distribute sharbat to passers-by. I was worried when I had heard that first. But Papa has given me so much freedom, even though I am pretty sure he used to be so worried about me before...that now I genuinely think that it is time that I return the favour. It is not easy for me. But I saw him tired but happy today, chatting about this and that. I felt happy. 

2. I am safe.

3. I took a train to Mahalaxmi and then walked to my friend's clinic nearby. Then we went to Pardon Our French in Ballard Estate and had a ton of stuff. We got a table fairly quickly without having to wait for too long. Yay! All photos are courtesy my friend.

4. We went back to her place and I played with her teeny baby girl. She's so cute. Within 5 minutes, she'd run through the whole emotional landscape of crying, hungry waiting, bashful smirks, death stares, and bored eye rolls. She was a ton of fun! 

5. Started reading my book club's recommendation today. I have not read the whole book and am wondering if I should skip out tomorrow. But the few pages that I read were excellent!