Day 69 of 108

 I am feeling a lot of strange and weird things, and am hoping that these sensations go away. But they won't. Thus begins a long night of making peace with a few things.

Today I attended a session on generational healing. We did a short meditation, and it made something so clear. I just hadn't seen it...at all earlier. Later, I called up Papa and asked him a few things and a few details that he shared added up to a whole lot. Genetics is a very scary and wonderful thing. Not that I understand a whole lot of it. But I would love to study it deeper. Maybe will look up books and other resources. Understanding that is actually the most critical investment I think I can make - at least investigate it properly.

Anyway, here are all the things that I am grateful for:

1. Papa is well. He sounded happy and healthy. Voice was robust.

2. Made plans to maybe meet a friend this weekend. The plan may or may not fructify. But we have the plans here. 

3. Had a really interesting session on intergenerational trauma healing. I feel I should really lean into the practices and give myself some time and tackle the exercises/ Yes, I do have a lot of doubts - whether it is genuine, whether these are my projections - but so what if they are? It is an indication of my effort and maybe that much is sufficient for now.

4. Started reading a lovely little book - The Old Man of the Moon by Shen Fu. So lilting and lyrical. 

5. Have a home and am safe.