Today was a huge rollercoaster ride and I am feeling overwhelmed. I am feeling tired. It just feels as if I have been walking an uphill battle off and on for a long time. It has been a long stretch of the desert and am still in the center of Thar.
There is pain. No doubt about it. Yet, it feels as if it is sharing the sofa with some well-being. There is pain yes. But... something feels settled a little bit.
Anyway, here are a few things that I am grateful for:
1. Papa is well. Did not get a chance to go meet him today. But no frantic calls. So he is okay.
2. Met a friend for dinner tonight. We went to 70 Beans near Palm Beach Galleria. Oh! It's excellent! We had a Korean pancake, a really yummy au gratin, some potato poppers, and a very tasty Kiwi margarita. Very good service. The best part as usual was my conversation with her. She told me about a concept called 'Decoupled' which is used in trauma therapy. It means isolating the strands of emotion from incident, etc. and being able to identify and see the trauma memory as memory. This was my understanding. I have to read more about it so I could have explained this wrong.
3. She also told me about a couple of concepts: Polyvagal theory and Bodynamics. Both associated with trauma therapy. Should explore both these concepts more.
4. Reached home safe.
5. Took the train to Vashi. Had a couple of difficult experiences. But felt good to be in motion in the rain, despite the crowd and all.
6. Oh. My friend also recommended another book by a Korean-born German philosopher. The book is called 'The Burnout Society'.
7. I got a book called Hikikomori by a Japanese psychologist who came up with this concept to explain a certain phenomenon he observed in Japan...people in their twenties or older who lock themselves in a room and just decide to exile from life. They don't even talk to their parents. Their parents leave them food outside their bedroom door and later collect the empty dishes. That is the extent of contact. And this apparently goes on for years or some extended period of time.
All the pictures from today:
No comments:
Post a Comment