Day 55 of 108

Have been really scattered today. But I did start something that I intend to be consistent with in the future. I am somewhere getting the feeling that the future is going to steadily get tougher, rougher, and more uncertain. I sometimes do wonder how might I actually get through it with some sanity intact. I don't have the answers. I am not even sure if I have a coherent question. Still I hope that things go well. And if or when the pain does come, it's gentle.

Here are all the things I am grateful for:

1. Papa is well. I went to meet him in Vashi today and he looked pleased. He enjoyed his dosa and mudi with me.

2. I found out about something going on st home that I was not at all happy with. But I did not lose my temper. I soothed myself down and decided to deep breathe through the whole thing. Problem is not resolved. But it's not made worse. And I am just glad that I at least made a brave effort to break a pattern.

3. Almost had an accident on the way back but the auto guy stopped right on time before he collided with a truck. So so grateful for this. Neither of us were hurt. Although I seemed to have locked in the shock a little more. Our auto friend happily got back to flitting about in no time.

4. I got my order of the Fenty beauty gloss bomb sticks. I love them! They actually fill my heart with cheer and hope and a nourished will to live! It's really worth the money! And for vegan products to be this creamy and lovely, they are gorgeous! 

5. Have a home to get to. There's water, electricity, and food.

6. Had the Arabian pudding from Pakeeza. Gosh! It was gorgeous! The layer of bread was drenched in that creamy rabdi-type milk, topped with flakes of almond and pista, and tender sweetness of custard. Yummy in my tummy!