Day 28 of 108

 A mixed bag of a day. Anger, annoyance, some anxiety. But a few sweet things happened.

Here are a few things I am grateful for:

1. Papa is well. Went to visit him today.

2. Met a friend today. Went to Vashi together and then we had a really nice time at Bread Kraft, Deonar. They have a lemon meringue doughnut pie that was really really good. I also tried a jalapeno-olive cream cheese croissant that was tasty. But the highlight definitely was the lemon meringue doughnut.

3. Got a rick from Deonar to Bandra. The guy was not accepting Gpay. Thankfully I had cash. Outside of Bandra, traveling in Mumbai is a weird situation.

4. Am safe.

5. Both help turned up and cleaned my flat. A neat bed and a clean sink are so precious!

6. I am feeling very uncomfortable regarding a few things. So I want to take this opportunity to address a comment that I got. It basically said "I want to die" dozens of times. Now, I am listing this as a point that I am grateful for not because it is a hapy thing. But I assume you wanted to reach out to someone. Please do breathe deeply and wait for the emotion to pass. It may feel as if it is terribly overwhelming or that feeling is very strong. But you must absolutely realise that something inside you is stronger than the despair. Please breathe and that strong side of you will emerge. 

I do not know if you are from India or not. These are the Helplines I got from ChatGPT.

🇮🇳 India – Suicide & Mental Health Helplines

🆘 KIRAN (Government of India)

📞 1800-599-0019

🕒 24×7

• National mental health rehabilitation helpline

• Multilingual support

• Confidential and free

🆘 AASRA

📞 91-9820466726

🕒 24×7

• One of India’s oldest suicide prevention helplines

• Trained volunteers

• Non-judgmental listening

🆘 Sneha Foundation

📞 044-24640050

🕒 24×7

• Based in Chennai but open to all

• Emotional support during distress and crisis

🆘 Vandrevala Foundation

📞 9999 666 555 (Call & WhatsApp)

📧 help@vandrevalafoundation.com

🕒 24×7

• Crisis support + counselling

• Particularly responsive via WhatsApp

🆘 iCall (TISS)

📞 9152987821

🕒 Mon–Sat, 8am–10pm

• Email & phone counselling

• Good for ongoing emotional stress, grief, burnout

🆘 Fortis Stress Helpline

📞 +918376804102

🕒 24×7

• Clinical support backed by Fortis hospitals