I had a dream but I am not sure if it was a dream or something crossed over...because I still remember it vividly. Opposite my building, there is a building under construction. Last night, it was an eclipse so I was praying - after a long and sad night of trying to work through something. So I don't remember if I was praying or meditating or had drifted off to sleep early morning. But I sensed I saw that in my dream. There are large tin barricades in the building under construction. I saw a thin woman in a blue t-shirt and tights - with dead eyes, she looked like a zombie, move the two sheets of the barricade aside and climb out of some dug up groove and cross the road to come to my building. Her eyes were dead but they were looking at me. Her face is really vivid and it has been over 10 hours of my waking up, but I still see it.
What could it mean? But maybe I will pray on it and ask her what she wants me to know. But something should stop in Bandra - this digging up should stop. I think we are dislodging some graves and some unrest is happening.
Based on my understanding of dream interpretation, here is my reading:
1. Eclipses are times when the 'veil' between this world and the next are thin. The underconstruction sites, dug up grounds, and the barricades could suggest that this is the veil that was opening.
2. The lady looking at me, even though she was the undead or a spirit, wanted to be seen. Maybe that's why I got the sense that maybe she was not so much haunting but asking me to take also acknowledge her in my ancestral prayers. Not sure if she was my ancestor or like in the Haunting of Hill House, I was seeing my own undead version in the future. (In that EXCELLENT series, one little girl sees a dead girl hanging from the ceiling or some such. It's her in the future. As an aside - so, even after all of the years after being dead and all, I am still in Bandra? Awesome!) But it just is good sense to pray for your own departed soul when one is still living. Actually, part of us is dying every day anyway - cells, etc. May as well acknowledge that - all that lived memory gone.
3. That shade of blue - I think there is something there. I am not sure what significance or symbolism it is - it is an ordinary blue. Could it be Mother Mary's background blue (now that Bandra Fair will begin on September 14th)? But something about that blue is regular, working-class, and all.
4. The expression had purpose. That is the one thing that struck me - that I reckon that she was a ghost with dead eyes but they still registered an expression. (Now as I type this, I am a little scared.) Could that somehow mean that even after one dies, the purpose lives on? Or that unless I fill my purpose, I will meet that fate? Or one of my ancestors had died without fulfilling her fate and that's what I want to know? The last one could be it.
Anyway, moving on to more mundane things. Here are all the things that I am grateful for:
1. Papa is well. He sounded hearty and happy.
2. Work was okay.
3. Made the decision to not go to the fancy gym from today. But went to the building gym and got a workout done.
4. Had some hash browns today.
5. Had rice and daal. Went to the drug store and got Diet Coke. Now that the gym is out, I think I will need to consciously get out of the house.
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