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Today was a very very tiring day. Still made some headway and got a few things done. I don't know why we don't register the exhaustion of reviewers. 

One of the reasons that is overlooked is that some people do not take accountability of the work they create. The starting point is of course a wide skill gap and a foundational baseline that people can't meet. But with focus and directed effort (and feedback based in grounding, etc.), you can still get to some level. But people who just don't take any responsibility for their work just break down a system in many ways. I worked with a piece of human turd once who took the whole day to do an incomplete job and then says that his system does not have Power Point. And what got in the way of his work was his grand delusion that he was right and justified. I think people like that should be blacklisted and not be allowed to work anywhere. They are the reason that rates of burnout can be high. These people remain bad at their job, sabotaging project grade and quality, so they never get to lead teams etc. They get old and experienced because management does not tell them to leave. Or if they are let go, they don't get told the real reason - that not just their performance was bad, their performance will always remain bad if something in their mindset and skill set does not change. 

This is painful and exhausting. And if you happen to review the work of someone like that, you have less time and mental energy to actually focus on someone else and help them develop. Someone who may be less 'smart' today but will be really good in a couple of months because they take responsibility for the work they put out.

Anyway, it's already 3 a.m. Will start work in sometime. This is when it gets exhausting - when you take on the responsibility of someone who didn't pull their weight but felt entitled to be let off. In their personal lives, they will still be those types of parasites who will likely have lots of friends. We live in an age where people have such low self-esteem that if someone is popular you can make out that they must be feeding some gnome-level void in a collective heart. 

Anyway, that's how the world turns. They will be there and we will be here.