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 I have taken leave for 7 days and I think that will be good for me. Want to spend more time with Papa. So that is good. But all that is in the future. I am trying to train myself to think about the present and only the present. It is oddly freeing and also challenging. I never thought of thinking of multiple things at the same time as multi-tasking. But that is correct - you worry about the future or reminisce about the past - that is multi-tasking and we all know now that multi-tasking is not possible.

I made myself some black coffee. It is close to 8 am and the sun is shining into my living room. I love the patterns that the morning light makes. Happy, cheerful shapes - it's like watching a creche where life left behind darkness and light and now they are fingerpainting with shadows.

Here are all the things that I am grateful for:

1. Papa is well. I spoke with him day before but not now. 

2. A big deliverable that I had been working on for a long time finally went to the client. That was a big thing. This bit always amazes me about life - how some things are just inordinate struggles. Simple small things that take you longer, use up more brain power, etc. I didn't realize how tired my brain was. But that happened and we are done for a bit. I think the way to endure - the only way to endure for a long time is to remain in the present. It sounds cliche and I am hardly the first person to think or do it but that's a fact. I have been clicking here and there - looking at a million videos, going through different sites, and the weird thing is that has taken me a long time to even finish this point. 

3. I am grateful for coffee - not just the wonderful cheery cup I made myself. But coffee in general - as a source of life and joy. How did the world arrange itself and time waltz around to bring this bean into existence? How did that happen?

4. I have a home. My belly is full and I am comfortable. I think to have enough spaciousness around you to notice the niggles in your body - that too is a precious experience.

5. Tried the hummus from the 'Khao Project'. That was really tasty.

What did I learn:

1. The Brahmari is really good to center your brain. It is awesome how quickly I used to get focused! It was a good swift short-cut to bring one into the zone. I really benefited from that when working on this project.