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 Well, I just finished with a little bit of work and I thought I will be a little more deliberate in my musings today. The viewership of my blog has gone up considerably. I wonder why and if it is actually human beings or bots. I have more faith that the bots will understand me. Data indicates that more project, delivery, and account managers are reading my blog. Strange because it is not as if they read my emails. It is a very funny group - project managers. They will do their best to avoid understanding the work involved. Not task, not time - the work. I wonder where that aversion comes from. It is sickening. This is what sickens me - why people continue to have the jobs they have. They obviously have no curiosity regarding it (passion and all is dead anyway but even a passing wonderment? No. Not even that.) I think a lot of the sloppy work happens because project managers in Indian elearning companies are selfish dunces. The ones who are not, move on to product development - it's a natural progression. What is left behind is a pool of human beings with some random management degree with a severely crippled risk-averse nature and a commitment to cluelessness. 

Writing this blog has usually been an interesting study of human behaviour. People will consume content - voyeuristically and then pretend as if they don't read my blog when they meet me in person. I wonder if they feel that it may lead to overfamiliarity or they don't want 'to give too much importance' or what. Life will just be easier with bots. 

Here are a few things that I am grateful for today:

1. Papa is well and happy. He sounded fresh and well-rested.

2. I had my cook make me a pudding with roasted makhana, figs, and curd. It was quite tasty.

3. Managed to get in a workout today. Was not very long but still it was something. 

4. Have water and am safe.

5. As I write this, at the altar I see a diya with a steady flame. It is so beautiful - fire really is beautiful.

I thought I will maybe add a segment here on the few things that I learned/ interesting things that I came across today:

1. There is a type of meditation where you close your eyes and imagine that your eyes/ pupils are made of stone. Keep still - let the closed eyes also not flicker. Apparently, you feel rested and integrated. Eyes are the places from where your energy leaks out the most. So if your eyes flicker a lot, dart about a lot, you lose focus and concentration very easily. The best way to avoid this is to keep your focused on one point. Your system is soothed and your focus is maintained.