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Today I saw something strange - how much we defend our fragility. A year ago, I was working with someone who said that the business world would realize the importance of emotional resilience in time. When senior people are not able to cope and fall ill and quit, when junior people are fatigued and check out, when everyone on tough projects and hard assignments feel like nomads and the bottom line is scuffed and eroded, then we will invest in teaching people how to tend to themselves.
I see the sense in that now. But I feel that after a certain age, one ought to understand your limitations and not dig your heels into demanding compensation you don't deserve anymore. Maybe at one time, you could. Now you don't. Self-assessment is a superpower. But there is another side. Maybe one does feel that they bring something to the table. To show up for work irrespective of how the world has crumbled around you that day merits something. Being a human is exhausting.
I was out for dinner with some friends. I don't know. I didn't quite enjoy the dinner. I felt a little tight and wound up. I seem to have been seething about something but I can't quite put a finger on it. I felt the whole thing seemed a little fake. But later, some of us went out for a walk on the beach and that was awesome! I think just being outdoors, feeling the breeze in your hair, and listening to the sound of the ocean makes you spacious. You can invite, absorb, and truly meet people where they are - instead of where you expect them to be. I should meet friends outside and do something instead of just inside someplace and eat.
Anyway, now I am not in a good mood. But here are a few things I am grateful for:
1. Papa is well and sounded cheerful on the phone. He had gone to the ashram today and organised lunch in memory of my aunt who recently passed on.
2. Weather was good.
3. Had water and electricity.
4. Began the day with an excellent massage.
5. Had a nice besan chilla.
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