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Prayer

Last night, I sat on the terrace and prayed. There was a big, shiny full moon that floated somewhere behind tall trees and gauzy clouds. I was feeling sapped and confused. I prayed that it must all make sense to me. Or else I must be free of this urge where things have to make sense to me. And here's what came to me...that it's time I got myself off the hook.  That , like the sea, time will have its ebbs and flows and will leave behind dregs of what was once beautiful. That friendships will end, passions will dim, furies will rise, breathing will be choked, ideas could be invalidated, identity may be rejected. But none of that may be because of me.

At times, one does nothing more wrong than being a pearl before the swines.

Comments

Anonymous said…
Get over your insecurities, be happy and live for yourself and others.
Mukta Raut said…
You too
Kashish said…
Agree with Anon. Give up envy, love all and that will be your true prayer.
Mukta Raut said…
Thank you Kashish. May you live by the same wisdom as well. :-)
Kashish said…
I'm living Mukta hence this friendly advice to you.
Mukta Raut said…
Much appreciate it.

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