There's got be a way...

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...where you can live out the rest of your life with someone, knowing fully well that he is toxic. That he will always, always bring you down. That, in any conversation or dialog, you will be at the receiving end of sick, putrid hatred.

There's got to be some way in which you can hold on to what you know about yourself, tightly. So what if your worth is being hacked, thrown in the gutter and being peed on?

There's got to be a way in which you get past this vile, bile-tasting acrid loathing. To swallow the corrossive, sickening fear and doubt. To finally get it over and done with.

There's got to be a way to get through this, smelling of roses and drenched in light.

Comments

Anonymous said…
Why would you want to do that???
10:46 AM
Anonymous said…
Lets find light
In the depths of night
Lets fuse delight
Erasing the ugly blight

Lets lit a lamp in some corner of our hearts..........so much darkness within how can you see light?
9:54 PM
Mukta Raut said…
it's easier to spot the light when it's dark, isn't it?
9:56 PM
n said…
Darling, I know just what you mean...

but the only option is to be the change you want to see in the world! (and pick your battles wisely, because you only have so much energy!!)

Good Luck!

PS: it is easier to give advice ;)
6:56 AM
Anonymous said…
That should not be reason enough to be in the dark!!!
9:51 AM
White Magpie said…
simplest way is to keep the switch with yourself..dont let anyone else have the power to press buttons in you. Tough but simple but tough again..
8:22 PM
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