Thursday, June 12, 2008


I am: dreaming a messy, beautiful heap of dreams.

I think: about how relative life is. Some days go by so quickly; some days they stay so long; most times, they crumble and fit into, the last verses of a song.

I know: that everything changes; that nothing is stronger than the pull of unfinished business

I want: a world with beautiful beaches, forests, and walkways; a place that is safe enough for a mother to take her children out late at night and sit on a pavement watching stars.

I have: had a very solid, beautiful life thus far, and a strong possibility that the story's going to continue this way

I wish: that everyone lives and dies happy. Also, that smoking is banned from the world. AND..I travel more

I hate: I’m trying not to hate anything anymore. But I seriously dislike cynicism, pessimism, dishonesty, pettiness, and a judgmental attitude. And smoking.

I miss: my days of pure innocence and the Bombay of my childhood.

I fear: Fear. Or that I’ll get cancer because of second hand smoke.

I feel: slothful and weak, and very proud of myself.

I hear: the phone ring.

I smell: sexy, I think. I’d get drawn to me.

I crave: a nice warm bed and a soothing massage, especially on my back.

I search: for my story; and for a sound way to get people to stop smoking.

I wonder: how incredible this world is! For every thought, there’s a sponsor. Also the limitless ways in which people can be self-destructive. (Ring a bell? SMOKERS?)

I regret: nothing

I love: poetry, babies, Bombay, mom, dad, books, sea, rain, water, fire, drizzle on a mountain top, view of the mountains, having a fizzy drink on the deck of a ship, rustling of silk, great clothes, a flat stomach, toned body, beautiful faces, the capacity of any living being to unlearn, forgive and move on, sharp stationery, Saturday Nights, Friday afternoons, the feeling of a job well done, bright prospects, festivals, movies, drives on an open road, giving rides to strangers, yellow flowers, ginger tea, good coffee, determination, discipline

I ache: hence, the craving for the back rub

I care: therefore I am

I am not: as weak or stupid as I’m made out to be; also not as inept a cook as I think I am

I believe: there’s more good than bad in the world; there are no coincidences; in karma; that everything’s born from something positive

I dance: fabulously when I don’t have an audience or a partner

I sing: lullabies pretty well

I cry: usually at sunset or at night, when I remember……

I don’t always: like the people I hang around with; forget a slight

I fight: only when I’m pushed to the corner; not always fair

I write: when an idea takes over and compels me

I win: in ways that are beyond my comprehension

I lose: hasn’t happened yet yeah…that’s true. :-)

I never: walk out of a movie; divulge secrets;

I always: try to get people to be more optimistic. I’m pretty unbearable that way. Read the prologue of a book, try to create a picture of what I’m reading; watch every movie until the very end – until the credits roll

I confuse: the good stuff with the important stuff

I listen: to the hum of self-absorption mostly

I can usually be found: with a cup of chai, in a supine position, thinking about the sea and the rain, or walking, or reading or writing

I am scared: of the notion that someday fear will immobilize me regarding something

I need: nothing. Everything that’s right for me, comes my way.

I am happy about: pretty much everything, but mostly about the future

I imagine: that I must have been a mermaid some time; that in the future I’m really rich and powerful with a fantastic apartment on the 150th floor of a building; and a yacht where my daughter learns sailing; that I have written a story that changes people; that I have my own personal rain god


Achoo said...

I think this is an amazing blog. Really good style.

I scribble here said...

hey that was the best tag ever .. really.. loved ur words

Paradox Phillic said...

Wonderfully written!

Lonely sky over the sea..... said...

Everything great, except why do u hate SMOKERS so much!!!!!!!! & I didnt know the extent till today....