Saturday, May 28, 2011

What is this feeling?

Of emptiness. The stomach feels like it is scooped out and filled with a solid sadness. Like if you operated me, you would actually find the sadness - in a small, smooth lump.

Of quiet despair, whistling soothing tunes to itself.

Of a cry that gets fibrous and slimy. It stays lodged in the gullet - niether going in, nor coming out.

Of sleep that makes you feel jilted.

Of fatigue that stays behind like remnants of dark nailpolish even when you have done your damndest to get rid of it.

Of a quiet certain feeling of being a failure. It's a feeling that settles in some cushy armchair your heart had that you didn't know of.

What is this feeling?

I'll think about it on my way to Bandra to meet a friend. 

5 comments:

Anonymous said...

It also tells you that you're alive....

Mukta said...

So if you don't feel all this, you won't know you're alive?

Anonymous said...

Everybody (even sheep) knows they're alive. Very few can feel it so strongly. Even fewer can articulate it as well as you've.

Mukta said...

thanks anon!

omnithere said...

sex is a very fulfilling experience...there could be a connection between this 'statement' and 'that' feeling...