My contract ends today. I had started a kind of a countdown to this day earlier, not because I was unhappy or anything. Maybe to remind myself that all things are impermanent. Including this. It was really quite a sweet, happy, tough, and am intellectually dazzling stint. But we are done and now I want to take some time to understand a few things about myself, really explore where the fears reside, where the hopes dance, where the freedom lays... Sometimes you have to set sail and explore yourself as a continent.
I did not do as much heart chakra meditation as much as I wanted. But I got the feeling that my solar plexus chakra is blocked. In a bad way. Let's see.
I had a raging headache today. It has subsided but I was just so sick of it. Then I slept with some alum under my pillow. I don't know why but it always helps me.
Am having a Diet Coke now. Having turned off the laptop feels sad. But I really am committed to at least understanding some deep fears that I hold. I think something about the psyche needs to know that it can trust me to give it time and attention.
A friend called me earlier to tell me some news. It was a little disturbing. Actually no. I will not label anything. It was news. There were facts and details that I was not expecting to hear. But there they were. So that's okay. We will deal with the facts as and when things come our way.
All the things that I am grateful for:
1. Papa is well.
2. I finished all the tasks assigned to me. I am usually not known for finishing things well. But I did that.
3. Had an extended head massage with warm coconut oil.
4. Have a home, running water, and health. So so grateful that the headache subsided.
5. The kuttu aata ka dosa was awesome!
6. In September the blog crossed 1 lakh hits. That's interesting!
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