Today

I am really really angry right now. And I am in the exact, EXACT same spot I was in earlier. But this time I really want to end the cycle. Oh God...give me strength! 

It is so shitty. When you go through tough times, it is one thing. Then you go through tough times and see them as a pattern? I think that could be worse. Maybe better in the long run but immediately feels like crap. 

I have my candle lit and a glass of cool cranberry juice. I will get down properly.

Candle flames are so beautiful!