I just finished an assignment that has been really tough for me. By tough, I mean REALLY tough. It's the sort of assignment that I had taken up many times before and left it. Mainly because of fear of rejection, mainly because of mental and emotional blocks, and mainly a crippling lack of confidence. I cannot explain the sickening procrastination that kept coating my gut everytime I opened the document, panicked, felt sick, and closed it again. I cannot explain that fear, the extent of self-loathing...but today I finished it.
I.finished.it.
I'll put that on my tombstone or have someone write it and tuck it with me when I lay on my funeral pyre. I am THAT peaceful now.
Monday will begin with a full day but a lot more confidence.
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